I’m not attached to any ideology or spiritual system. When I engage with them, it’s mainly as tools for self-examination or for decoding other people’s reports: what exactly did they see, hear or feel, why did they interpret it that way. Most of the time they’re simply trying to put words around something that happened to them and share it. Whether they’re being completely honest or heavily filtered/biased is always an open question.
There’s also a second group: those who never had the direct experience themselves but only encountered genuine firsthand reports (from the true “explorers”). They absorb, interpret, and retell it second-hand. The question then becomes: Can anyone truly grasp the essence without having lived it? How does their opinion reshape the original insight? What gets quietly added, subtracted, or reframed in transmission? Which parts are authentic core messages, and which are cultural/psychological filler that can be stripped away?
This is what I found after my own experience. I decided to completely shut off all feelings, desires, and emotions and be present in pure consciousness - without any pulls toward something, without any reaction to what I observed. Even the air I was breathing felt tasteless. In that state, I recognized my consciousness as empty, purposeless, and meaningless.
I still had my intellect as an object-recognition tool and a memory librarian. Thoughts arose based only on my past and what I had wanted recently. No desires, no new plans - just floating downstream in the direction I had previously found reasonable. No moral interpretations, no evaluation of events, no motivation.
I was in my body, and it still had its independent reflexes via the somatic and autonomic nervous systems. I was able to drive a car as usual. My state had lost any drives toward existence; my soul - empty consciousness - had nothing of its own to give meaning to being. Without instinctive or higher transcendent guidance there are no cravings, opinions, motivations, or goals.
I decided to drive home only because I had promised my son earlier that I would be there at 7 p.m. It was an automatic, intellectually understood decision. My intellect operated on pure logic, based solely on stored data in my “brain” and current experience.
So, the intellect is here with us to serve our souls on Earth while we are in the body. I was even able to detach briefly from the intellect and thoughts. My state became even more pointless: an empty and detached soul - consciousness - felt like useless energy.
Please, don't try this without earlier deep spiritual experiences.
Oneness, pure consciousness, and other similar spiritual states are not truly pure. Spiritual awakening is a transition into a different realm, where our souls gain transcendent meaning and reason for being - reason both as the recognition of meaning and as the cause. This is what is in the Design.
It is not enough to strip away instinctive drives. We are growing into something bigger. We were designed to live by the meaning and reason of this universe. This is why we have the desire to awaken and liberate: it is a call from our true nature, a pull toward our true state. Being guided by meaning and holy reason, we become aware of the true Self.
As someone on this journey, I confidently state that God is the source of everything - including our meaning of existence and the holy reason to be alive. Love is the meaningful and reasonable intention to fulfill it.