Despite being a “messiah” - the guy who was chosen by God to explain the truth of our current condition and the way of change, I don’t know who God really is, what soul is, what the spirit is exactly and how everything is working. I have my humble opinions, but I can't be sure if I didn't test it, didn't see it, didn't look at the original blueprint. I don't know if we have life after physical death, or reincarnation, paradise or hell. I wasn't informed by God about many things and I didn't ask Him seriously about things that He didn't point my attention to as very important. So, I am not going to fight with Bible, Karan, Sanskrit texts or science. My mission is to inform people that their current guidance is like a software they have inherited from animals and for some reason we didn't switch to our authentic guidance designed specifically for humans. To receive the new one we first need to understand the situation and have a desire to get rid of animalistic guidance. Everything comes from God. We need to be like a lamb on the altar. You will understand why. Our old guidance was firmly implanted that we associate ourselves with it. We think that we have voluntary feelings, desires and emotions but they come from unreasonable preprogrammed instincts. There's no room for reasoning and meaning. Even our thoughts use intellect to serve that illusion of self, justify our decisions and raise confidence in opinions. No vision of reality in this system, no wisdom, no freedom, no future for humanity. You can try and I say you should try to be a righteous, unconditionally loving and perfect person as God demands. You will fail, of course, but you need this experience to honestly and humbly admit it before God and sincerely and firmly ask God to help have a better alternative to this animalistic nature. My unique point in this process is to reject the whole tree of emotions, desires and feelings with its roots. Stop associating yourself with them. You can't reject just anger, envy and shame, you also need to reject the opposite side - positive emotions, desires and feelings. The whole system of instinctive reactions must be rejected. This is how you deny yourself, carry a cross and crucify your old guidance. Love is the trickiest feeling you can have. You think that it is pure and righteous, but it is not. This is the biggest obstacle in the way toward God and His Kingdom. All your feelings from that old animalistic guidance, even love. If you keep love, you will substitute God to that feeling you experience. Instinctive love - is what makes YOU feel good, not the object of your love. Look what's behind this feeling, what's the meaning of love? You're doing something important, useful, healthy, meaningful for an object of your love without experiencing feedback. Like a transfer of energy in one direction. No feeling good is needed, just pure intentions and honest will to do something. See God as the object of this love and understand that He loves you and others the same way, the only thing, He can't manually influence the physical world. He controls the universe through multilayered guidance like through operating system and software. Our human world seems broken exactly because people are not under His direct love and influence but under control of a lower layer of guidance designed for unreasonable animals. So, you execute the will of God either as an animal or like a human child, reasonable, authentic, free and connected to God.
Another important moment. To replace old guidance you need to start using the new one immediately. Don't feel, don't think, just be aware and understand the meaning of your needs. This condition is the mix of deep meditation and deep wordless prayer. Just keep your inner core (heart) open and connected to God. You must learn to speak and think without words. Just share the meaning in your heart and listen to God the same way. It is His way to communicate. No words or feelings are coming from Him, just that silent meaningful love, knowledge and wisdom.
What we sense as God is our authentic guidance. It is not God himself, but I believe it is the connection to Him. It is the Holy Spirit described in the Bible or Atman in Upanishad. I call it the Holy Reason. Reason - because it operates by giving understanding, open eyes to see meaning and guides to desire truth, harmony, trust, unity, righteousness, wisdom. Why Holy? Because it is not human invention, origin and not our intelligence. Because I desire meaning, I see sexual activity as the way to conceive a child. And because my instinctive drives don't have power over me, pleasure is not triggering my heart and seems to me bleary. My agency in the Spirit of God, not in old mind and feelings. I still receive signals from my body and I take care of it - washing, feeding, exercising if I have time, and sleeping well (usually). I experience emotions only as a communication tool, I don't feed from them. They have one direction. And I don't know how I will interact with people like me.