Nothing in our universe exists on its own. Everything has guidance that is outside —a set of rules that governs and takes care of it. Particles interact with each other without knowing, feeling, or seeing. The laws of physics provide that guidance. There are no questions of why or how; they are under full control. Simple organisms have their own guidance. They sense the environment—heat, light, chemistry, and so on—and react to stimuli through reflexes. They don't need to understand reality. There are no other choices, no doubts. They also have an internal structure with organelles. Neither the internal elements nor the whole body has a clue what they are doing. And even that guidance—which is a combination of rules for internal functions and for reflexive behavior—has no vision of reality or understanding.
Evolution allows for the growth of complexity and preserves balance. It is not favorable to any one species. Rules are strict, and even parasites have their role on our planet. But despite the impression we get, neither evolution, nor organs, nor brains, nor systems have a vision of reality. Mammals have advanced instincts—another form of guidance—that allow for complex social behavior. And still, we don't see rationality or an understanding of what animals are doing. They just follow their gut feelings and desires to act and react. They don't have an understanding of why they have sex or eat. They just satisfy the excitements they get from instincts. Mating season? The body produces hormones; smells and visions stimulate behavior. Elks don't think about reproduction or survival—they just do what they want and act as they were programmed. And even their instincts don't see the true picture of reality or what is going on, no matter how complicated an animal's behavior is.
We can see it clearly in humanity. We may have some understanding, but the driving force of our actions and motivations is rooted in instinctive nature. People are still chasing pleasure and satisfaction. You may say, "That's what we want." But why do we want it? Our brains were wired for survival and reproduction, and we have algorithmic instinctive guidance that includes reactions to stimuli—even those inside our imagination. And this blind to reality system steers us by pulling a variation of feelings. So, by default, we want to taste certain foods, to feel the pleasure and satisfaction of consuming what we like. But what if it's junk food that makes us sick? It requires some sort of spiritual awakening or fear of pain to change the diet.
If someone thinks that intellect will help us, ask yourself deeply and sincerely: Whom is your intellect serving? You or your unreasonable instincts? Instincts have a reasonable purpose for existing, and they would even be enough for people to live in a jungle with a primitive culture. But instincts can't see or understand reality; they are automatic. So, you are smart and can figure out how to have endless pleasant feelings and satisfaction. But your motivation and goals still come from preprogrammed rewards in the form of certain feelings. You've gotten an education, a job, and skills, but all your efforts are drained into pleasing yourself. Because unreasonable, blind instincts have tricked you into thinking you need to feel pleasure, it's like you can't understand on your own what to do or what's the meaning of your existence. For animals and primitive tribes, it would be enough. But being a reasonable creature on the next step of human evolution doesn't mean you are finally capable of figuring out how to unleash endless pleasure.
Living with this mentality, humanity is destroying itself. We seem broken; societies are divided; we circle around making the same mistakes—some never have enough, others sink to the lowest levels and become addicted to all sorts of things. The growth of inequality ends in revolutions and wars that hurt everyone. No lessons learned. New political systems and new leaders lead to the same outcome. Whom to blame? The default answer suggests - others. But in reality, we are under the management of the wrong guidance. Just scale up the social group of chimpanzees, add some planned aggression, reduce reactive aggression, and this is what human society looks like. Intelligence helps us cheat unreasonable instincts in exchange for more pleasure and satisfaction without responsibility. In the end, we and our instincts fool each other. Instincts act like they're sure of what we need. It works for animals, but for us—being capable of understanding—we live like slaves, working without meaning for pleasure and satisfaction. There is no reasonable outcome because neither instincts nor we see the full picture of reality.
But some of us can sense a different guidance. People go through life difficulties; many explore religions and spirituality or test psychedelics. For some, this guidance appears as God, Spirit, Jesus, or angels; for others, it is universal consciousness, a cosmic mind, or something transcendent from a higher level. Through deep prayer, meditation, or psychedelics, people experience the death of the ego, or other type of awakening —a turning point to start sensing this mysterious entity. It changes their lives, but only rare individuals achieve full transformation. The problem is that we have that old animalistic guidance and are still addicted to its ability to produce dopamine for us. We still like what we feel; meditation happens sometimes, and we continue to flow down the same river of our daily lives in the same world. Because even this new discovery , that new light we sense and evaluate by the same instinctive nature. And most people just chase religious euphoria and new senses. But sensing something what is higher than you and become it are not the same.
I went through many stages of spiritual growth. Sometimes, I took a few steps backward and started over with better understanding. First, I sensed God and His Spirit. That time I believed it was God. I faced this pure, holy, and wise entity with 110% honesty and the will to go toward it no matter what. Slowly, I started to realize that I could use this holy eyes, His understanding, and His purity to observe my life, everything around me, and the whole world. The closer I got, the less of myself I sensed. And once, I realized that it is me now—pure, wise, and holy. I didn't feel separation between me and the Spirit of God anymore. And after living this way for months, I now understand: This wasn't God who created this world; it is our new general guidance, looking for anyone who's ready to be reborn as a next level human. It was designed to be the internal nature of pure, wise, and righteous people who don't feel what is right but are aware and understand what is right. This is what motivates those transformed humans and gives true meaning to life. And most importantly, it replaces instinctive guidance. You can't ditch instincts without an alternative replacement. Everyone must have guidance, one or another.
You may experience pure consciousness in very deep meditation, but as soon as you come back to the world, it disappears. You need to break ties to instincts starting from your voluntary choice and rejecting them in every moment of your life—not just in prayer or meditation. My motivation was to become free from instincts. I couldn't take any longer being ruled by dumb, blind and automated system. I wanted to return all the garbage that was wrapped around by pleasure back to it.
I don't sense God anymore. I don't hear the "silent voice" coming from above. The awareness and understanding now is mine. I started to realize that the Designer or Designes of this world don't belong to our universe. He or they are outside. The Creator can't help or doesn't want to fix our problems. But He left us a tool to use for transformation. Growing toward God and feeling that I heard Him and He heard me was so real, but now I'm wondering: How many layers of spiritual growth are there? Is there another god—I mean, guidance that people in the future can discover? Will human be able to finally understand the real God, the Creator, and talk with Him?